kneaded_human (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} kneaded_human) wrote,@ 2008-12-10 15:05:00 |
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O' Brother
My brother will be visiting Ottawa to spend time with our family this Christmas. The last time we were all (all being; my mother, sister, brother and myself) together for Christmas was four years ago.
My sister is giddy.
My mother is excited.
I'm kind of nervous.
My brother has always been, far and away, the biggest influence on my life. Growing up he was equal parts my tormentor and my hero. When I was eleven years old he moved out from my mothers to live with my father and since then I've seen him, maybe, two dozen times. Over the past four years though I think I've only spent time with him one three occasions.
He's four years older than me, which when your ten means he's a grown-up, but now with our ages at 21 and 25 he's practically my peer.
The problem though is that I feel a lot of pressure to be someone that he is proud of.
My brother will be visiting Ottawa to spend time with our family this Christmas. The last time we were all (all being; my mother, sister, brother and myself) together for Christmas was four years ago.
My sister is giddy.
My mother is excited.
I'm kind of nervous.
My brother has always been, far and away, the biggest influence on my life. Growing up he was equal parts my tormentor and my hero. When I was eleven years old he moved out from my mothers to live with my father and since then I've seen him, maybe, two dozen times. Over the past four years though I think I've only spent time with him one three occasions.
He's four years older than me, which when your ten means he's a grown-up, but now with our ages at 21 and 25 he's practically my peer.
The problem though is that I feel a lot of pressure to be someone that he is proud of.
